It’s snowing right now. Like, a lot. It’s been snowing all day and several inches (maybe even a foot!) have accumulated by now. Yet here I am, working away on…well…stuff, OK? I’m working on stuff and any further details are none of your damn business.
School was canceled today yet here I am “working” (on stuff!) hard as usual. A decade (or two) ago, I would have spent a day like today sledding, or lying around watching TV, or sledding then going home to lie around and watch TV. Now that I’m an adult, however, there’s no such thing as a snow day. Even back when I had a real job (I did! I swear!), on the rare (extremely rare — I worked in the office through Hurricane Sandy) occasion we were allowed to stay home due to inclement weather, we were expected to work.
Now that I’m my own boss (lol), however, I can’t afford to take a day off. I mean, technically I could afford it because I rarely make actual money, but you get what I mean. Sure, I could lie around all day bingeing some show on Netflix and sure, I’ve been doing exactly that (the new season of The Standups) all day, but what I’m saying is I feel guilty about it.
That’s the hard thing about being a “freelancer”: no one ever gives you a day off. No one ever tells you that you have to work either, but that’s not the point I’m making right now. The point I’m making is that I’m tired and I want to watch TV and stay inside my apartment all day — which is exactly what I’m doing today (and most days, tbh) — with permission.
I want someone to say, “Mary, you may not make any money but you work really hard and you deserve a break. So take one today! Right goddamn now! Lie down and turn on the TV and turn off your computer then turn it back on in a few hours but only to online shop. You earned it — and by “it” I mean the right to relax, not money, obviously. Lol you’re so broke.”
Since I’m a “freelancer,” however, no one is going to tell me I’m allowed to do nothing today. So, I guess I just have to keep lying on this couch staring at 1–2 screens while feeling a little bit guilty about it but not actually that guilty because what am I missing out on — $10? Lol I’m so broke.
Let it snow.